the real meaning of eid

hari raya bermaksud dapat makan sebaik sahaja celik mata.
xpayah dah terbayang apa nak makan untuk berbuka kerana apabila lapar sahaja,pegi la kedai dan beli la apa2.
sungguh mudah.
itulah makna hari raya kepada saya.

sejak sudah menjadi tua bangka ini,saya terasa makin boring dgn hari raya
sure hari raya itu lambang kemenangan kita selepas berperang dgn nafsu di bulan puasa.
xde niat lansung untuk memperlekehkan idea tu
cuma sebab dah tua:

1)shopping raya xbest sebab kena pakai duit sendiri di mana selama ini, bapak sayalah yg bagi duit shopping
2)siap kena cover duit untuk adik yang tershopping lebih budget.xpasal2 aje.moral of the story,biar adik gi shopping dgn bfriend dia.kerana jika dia terlebih budget,bfriend dia la yg bayar selebihnya.
3)mmg confirm xdapat duit raya dah.
4)kena keluar budget untuk melayan angan2 emak yg mahukan langsir dan segala macam yang baru.
5)raya tu xberapa best dah sebab beraya sorang.hehe.itu je point dia sebenarnya.cuba klu dah kawin ke,hapa ke..raya tu mcm best sket kot....

mental note: selamat hari raya.baby,i bleh pegang2 u dah lepas ni.hehe.no excuse.dah xposa.

As I was waiting for you to come home

hi baby
i kept thinking about u these few days
i missed u so much
i don't even understand
i've just met u a few days ago
but it felt like ages since the last time i saw u
i hated the fact that we had to apart of each other
i want to be closer to u
it makes me sad
almost empty whenever u're not around
u make me feel so complete
i am whole when i'm with u

i missed u so much
i can't bear the thought of u going away
i need u
sorry for being weak like this
in this trouble times, i feel like i need u even more
i can't deal with the problem alone
i'm scared to think of what is going to happen

i missed u so much b
i feel really alone
its funny because Nasha is with me
how could i be so lost?
how could i be so sad?
i missed ur smile
i missed ur laughter
i missed ur smell
i missed ur voice
but i missed having to hold ur hand and know that u'll always be there


mental note:i had to force myself not to cry as i'm writing this entry in the staff room.i kept holding the bracelet u gave me.its as if i was holding u myself.for now,when u're not home,it would be enough.come home baby.i missed u so much.

The day i knew everything went wrong

I thought u're going to call and say sorry.but u're too proud to admit that u did hurt me with those things that u said.i thought u'll be happy to have me around.but i guess what i have gave u is still not enough.i tried to please u in any way that i know,but u still hurt me.i should know that no matter what i do,u won't change.u won't love me.