chill people!
i'm not abducted by aliens nor by my mum
i'm just busy redecorating my new car
enjoying my last bits of holiday with bubu
ok pause.
i'm having writer's block.
damn
Dec 29, 2009
WHOA IQBAL!
Wow..
four blogs and i had no clue???
wow..............
mental note: kepada UNCLE JACK WROTE "u are too stubborn.learn to listen to others (dalam kes ni I la orangnya..) It doesn't hurt to listen to others."
four blogs and i had no clue???
wow..............
mental note: kepada UNCLE JACK WROTE "u are too stubborn.learn to listen to others (dalam kes ni I la orangnya..) It doesn't hurt to listen to others."
Nov 20, 2009
i'm being stupid. for the thousand time.
i wonder why i still feel sad
i thought i could sleep it off
and forget about it.
but its still root deep inside my heart
i couldn't stop my tears
it hurts so much
i tried to imagine how life will be like
i guess it won't be so bad
i'll just have to continue to pretend
how can i make him understand
how can i explain
when each time i tried to say something
i feel ashamed of myself
ashamed of my weakness
ashamed that i crave his company and his attention
while all he wants to do is work.
i am a weakling.
mental note: if u are reading this, ignore all of these. my entry semuanya sampah. its like u're reading budak umur 3 tahun punya mind. i'm shallow. don't even bother to say anything.i'll hate myself even more.
i thought i could sleep it off
and forget about it.
but its still root deep inside my heart
i couldn't stop my tears
it hurts so much
i tried to imagine how life will be like
i guess it won't be so bad
i'll just have to continue to pretend
how can i make him understand
how can i explain
when each time i tried to say something
i feel ashamed of myself
ashamed of my weakness
ashamed that i crave his company and his attention
while all he wants to do is work.
i am a weakling.
mental note: if u are reading this, ignore all of these. my entry semuanya sampah. its like u're reading budak umur 3 tahun punya mind. i'm shallow. don't even bother to say anything.i'll hate myself even more.
the day i'm totally speechless
this is the day that i'm totally speechless
like nothing can come out from my mouth
no argument
no sulking
no rejection
no bullshit whatsoever
i'm speechless
the reasons behind this mute-ness maybe because i didn't think it would hurt me that much.
i didn't know that in order to swallow back your own shame and tears,u can't open your mouth and spill your guts.
u won't be able to held your head high and pretend its ok.
i don't know how to react with him looking so confident presenting his case to me.
i guessed i'm too stunned.
and i'm way too sad.
i can't open my mouth.
because i'm trying to swallow back my tears.
cliche.
i'm being so typical nali.
nali yang kuat nangis
nali yang xpaham benda2
nali yang emo.
i can't fight over this.
i had nothing to lay on the table.
my hands were empty.
i'm speechless as i was typing this.
my heart hurts.
my head spins.
i need to breathe.
i'm strong.
this is nothing.
being stuck in kelantan is a great news.
nothing could have been better than that
can't even compare it to the fact that i get in his way of making money.
well.i lied.
that hurts the most.
mental note:sell the damn car.
like nothing can come out from my mouth
no argument
no sulking
no rejection
no bullshit whatsoever
i'm speechless
the reasons behind this mute-ness maybe because i didn't think it would hurt me that much.
i didn't know that in order to swallow back your own shame and tears,u can't open your mouth and spill your guts.
u won't be able to held your head high and pretend its ok.
i don't know how to react with him looking so confident presenting his case to me.
i guessed i'm too stunned.
and i'm way too sad.
i can't open my mouth.
because i'm trying to swallow back my tears.
cliche.
i'm being so typical nali.
nali yang kuat nangis
nali yang xpaham benda2
nali yang emo.
i can't fight over this.
i had nothing to lay on the table.
my hands were empty.
i'm speechless as i was typing this.
my heart hurts.
my head spins.
i need to breathe.
i'm strong.
this is nothing.
being stuck in kelantan is a great news.
nothing could have been better than that
can't even compare it to the fact that i get in his way of making money.
well.i lied.
that hurts the most.
mental note:sell the damn car.
Nov 18, 2009
NYANYIAN SAYA
NEGARAKU
TANAH TUMPAHNYA DARAHKU
RAKYAT HIDUP
BERSATU DAN MAJU
RAHMAT BAHAGIA
TUHAN KURNIAKAN
RAJA KITA SELAMAT BERTAKHTA
RAHMAT BAHAGIA
TUHAN KURNIAKAN
RAJA KITA SELAMAT BERTAKHTA
TANAH TUMPAHNYA DARAHKU
RAKYAT HIDUP
BERSATU DAN MAJU
RAHMAT BAHAGIA
TUHAN KURNIAKAN
RAJA KITA SELAMAT BERTAKHTA
RAHMAT BAHAGIA
TUHAN KURNIAKAN
RAJA KITA SELAMAT BERTAKHTA
Nov 10, 2009
e36 in the making!
first of all..
hi baby
that title telah diilhamkan from my baby
its been a while people!
i haven't been kidnapped nor gone missing
just really really really (see triple really maksudnya sangat3)
BUSY!!!
hoh sungguh banyak la keje jadik cikgu ni
though i always felt like i'm not really teaching
tapi balik rumah flat kepenatan juga....
busy melayan baby
busy gaduh dengan budak2 darjah 2
semua busy
hmm busy buat2 busy
haha
my weekly trips to ipoh berjalan seperti biasa
every weekend balik ke ipoh
had to see my baby
kena punch card
*wink*
then baru bleh survive another horrendous weekdays kat kelantan ni
not that its that bad
xde geng macam ni la
berkurung je dalam rumah
hmm dah bukan social butterfly dah
(ntah bila masa aku mcm tu ntah)
anyways
merujuk kepada tajuk entry saya pada pagi ini
saya dengan rasa bangga ingin mengumumkan bahawa...
"E36 IN THE MAKING!!!!!!"
damn.my car sungguh cunnnnnnn
rasa meleleh air liur apabila teringat tentang beliau
baiklah kerana saya sungguh berlagak hari ini,
saya akan sertakan biodata kereta saya
nama beliau: Rokiah Ronggeng a.k.a BMW
model: e36
tahun dilahirkan: 1993 (makin tua makin pekat santannya..that goes to u, baby!*wink*)
kuasa kuda:1.8cc
warna kulit: putih
warna mata: kuning (bakal ditukarkn kepada putih soon..)
tahap ke-cun-an: agong
makanan kegemaran: xpasti lagi.mungkin caltex atau esso atau bhp.
status: taken and glad about it!
motto hidup: "I LIVE TO SERVE MY MASTER"...yeaaghhhhh!!!
wow sungguh berlagak
hmm xpe.kereta tu mmg cun pun
gambar akan diupload soon enough
nantikan kemunculannya...
mental note: baby,kita sekarang ni BIMMERS kan?hoho
hi baby
that title telah diilhamkan from my baby
its been a while people!
i haven't been kidnapped nor gone missing
just really really really (see triple really maksudnya sangat3)
BUSY!!!
hoh sungguh banyak la keje jadik cikgu ni
though i always felt like i'm not really teaching
tapi balik rumah flat kepenatan juga....
busy melayan baby
busy gaduh dengan budak2 darjah 2
semua busy
hmm busy buat2 busy
haha
my weekly trips to ipoh berjalan seperti biasa
every weekend balik ke ipoh
had to see my baby
kena punch card
*wink*
then baru bleh survive another horrendous weekdays kat kelantan ni
not that its that bad
xde geng macam ni la
berkurung je dalam rumah
hmm dah bukan social butterfly dah
(ntah bila masa aku mcm tu ntah)
anyways
merujuk kepada tajuk entry saya pada pagi ini
saya dengan rasa bangga ingin mengumumkan bahawa...
"E36 IN THE MAKING!!!!!!"
damn.my car sungguh cunnnnnnn
rasa meleleh air liur apabila teringat tentang beliau
baiklah kerana saya sungguh berlagak hari ini,
saya akan sertakan biodata kereta saya
nama beliau: Rokiah Ronggeng a.k.a BMW
model: e36
tahun dilahirkan: 1993 (makin tua makin pekat santannya..that goes to u, baby!*wink*)
kuasa kuda:1.8cc
warna kulit: putih
warna mata: kuning (bakal ditukarkn kepada putih soon..)
tahap ke-cun-an: agong
makanan kegemaran: xpasti lagi.mungkin caltex atau esso atau bhp.
status: taken and glad about it!
motto hidup: "I LIVE TO SERVE MY MASTER"...yeaaghhhhh!!!
wow sungguh berlagak
hmm xpe.kereta tu mmg cun pun
gambar akan diupload soon enough
nantikan kemunculannya...
mental note: baby,kita sekarang ni BIMMERS kan?hoho
Oct 25, 2009
a new start
so today i've decided to start again with you
its simply because i don't feel like i know you anymore
wait
i memang xkenal u pun
hah
quick survey
total waste (years of "together-ness" ~konon) : 7
things that i have learned : a lot. most recently > i'm on my own
things that i have shared : too many.xsepatutnya share.damn.mulut celupar betul.
my next move : suck it up.tebalkan telinga,buat muka xmalu.there's nothing that i can do.i'm already deep in this shit. (mama cakap kalau nak ikbal jangan komplen)
i'm not complaining.i'm blogging!
mental note:bila rasa menyesal sayang ikbal, pejam mata kuat2 dan nyanyi lagu negarakuuuuuuuuu..........
its simply because i don't feel like i know you anymore
wait
i memang xkenal u pun
hah
quick survey
total waste (years of "together-ness" ~konon) : 7
things that i have learned : a lot. most recently > i'm on my own
things that i have shared : too many.xsepatutnya share.damn.mulut celupar betul.
my next move : suck it up.tebalkan telinga,buat muka xmalu.there's nothing that i can do.i'm already deep in this shit. (mama cakap kalau nak ikbal jangan komplen)
i'm not complaining.i'm blogging!
mental note:bila rasa menyesal sayang ikbal, pejam mata kuat2 dan nyanyi lagu negarakuuuuuuuuu..........
Sep 22, 2009
the real meaning of eid
hari raya bermaksud dapat makan sebaik sahaja celik mata.
xpayah dah terbayang apa nak makan untuk berbuka kerana apabila lapar sahaja,pegi la kedai dan beli la apa2.
sungguh mudah.
itulah makna hari raya kepada saya.
sejak sudah menjadi tua bangka ini,saya terasa makin boring dgn hari raya
sure hari raya itu lambang kemenangan kita selepas berperang dgn nafsu di bulan puasa.
xde niat lansung untuk memperlekehkan idea tu
cuma sebab dah tua:
1)shopping raya xbest sebab kena pakai duit sendiri di mana selama ini, bapak sayalah yg bagi duit shopping
2)siap kena cover duit untuk adik yang tershopping lebih budget.xpasal2 aje.moral of the story,biar adik gi shopping dgn bfriend dia.kerana jika dia terlebih budget,bfriend dia la yg bayar selebihnya.
3)mmg confirm xdapat duit raya dah.
4)kena keluar budget untuk melayan angan2 emak yg mahukan langsir dan segala macam yang baru.
5)raya tu xberapa best dah sebab beraya sorang.hehe.itu je point dia sebenarnya.cuba klu dah kawin ke,hapa ke..raya tu mcm best sket kot....
mental note: selamat hari raya.baby,i bleh pegang2 u dah lepas ni.hehe.no excuse.dah xposa.
xpayah dah terbayang apa nak makan untuk berbuka kerana apabila lapar sahaja,pegi la kedai dan beli la apa2.
sungguh mudah.
itulah makna hari raya kepada saya.
sejak sudah menjadi tua bangka ini,saya terasa makin boring dgn hari raya
sure hari raya itu lambang kemenangan kita selepas berperang dgn nafsu di bulan puasa.
xde niat lansung untuk memperlekehkan idea tu
cuma sebab dah tua:
1)shopping raya xbest sebab kena pakai duit sendiri di mana selama ini, bapak sayalah yg bagi duit shopping
2)siap kena cover duit untuk adik yang tershopping lebih budget.xpasal2 aje.moral of the story,biar adik gi shopping dgn bfriend dia.kerana jika dia terlebih budget,bfriend dia la yg bayar selebihnya.
3)mmg confirm xdapat duit raya dah.
4)kena keluar budget untuk melayan angan2 emak yg mahukan langsir dan segala macam yang baru.
5)raya tu xberapa best dah sebab beraya sorang.hehe.itu je point dia sebenarnya.cuba klu dah kawin ke,hapa ke..raya tu mcm best sket kot....
mental note: selamat hari raya.baby,i bleh pegang2 u dah lepas ni.hehe.no excuse.dah xposa.
Sep 6, 2009
As I was waiting for you to come home
hi baby
i kept thinking about u these few days
i missed u so much
i don't even understand
i've just met u a few days ago
but it felt like ages since the last time i saw u
i hated the fact that we had to apart of each other
i want to be closer to u
it makes me sad
almost empty whenever u're not around
u make me feel so complete
i am whole when i'm with u
i missed u so much
i can't bear the thought of u going away
i need u
sorry for being weak like this
in this trouble times, i feel like i need u even more
i can't deal with the problem alone
i'm scared to think of what is going to happen
i missed u so much b
i feel really alone
its funny because Nasha is with me
how could i be so lost?
how could i be so sad?
i missed ur smile
i missed ur laughter
i missed ur smell
i missed ur voice
but i missed having to hold ur hand and know that u'll always be there
mental note:i had to force myself not to cry as i'm writing this entry in the staff room.i kept holding the bracelet u gave me.its as if i was holding u myself.for now,when u're not home,it would be enough.come home baby.i missed u so much.
i kept thinking about u these few days
i missed u so much
i don't even understand
i've just met u a few days ago
but it felt like ages since the last time i saw u
i hated the fact that we had to apart of each other
i want to be closer to u
it makes me sad
almost empty whenever u're not around
u make me feel so complete
i am whole when i'm with u
i missed u so much
i can't bear the thought of u going away
i need u
sorry for being weak like this
in this trouble times, i feel like i need u even more
i can't deal with the problem alone
i'm scared to think of what is going to happen
i missed u so much b
i feel really alone
its funny because Nasha is with me
how could i be so lost?
how could i be so sad?
i missed ur smile
i missed ur laughter
i missed ur smell
i missed ur voice
but i missed having to hold ur hand and know that u'll always be there
mental note:i had to force myself not to cry as i'm writing this entry in the staff room.i kept holding the bracelet u gave me.its as if i was holding u myself.for now,when u're not home,it would be enough.come home baby.i missed u so much.
Sep 3, 2009
The day i knew everything went wrong
I thought u're going to call and say sorry.but u're too proud to admit that u did hurt me with those things that u said.i thought u'll be happy to have me around.but i guess what i have gave u is still not enough.i tried to please u in any way that i know,but u still hurt me.i should know that no matter what i do,u won't change.u won't love me.
Aug 18, 2009
SPELL IT RIGHT
P.E.R.F.O.R.M.A.N.C.E
read it
understand it
work it
mental note:entry ini khas utk bubu kesayangan saya.no hard feelings eh babe?
read it
understand it
work it
mental note:entry ini khas utk bubu kesayangan saya.no hard feelings eh babe?
Aug 15, 2009
Running away from acara memanah
hehe.
tajuk tu macam best kan?
hari ni ada mesyuarat pibg and my dearest guru besar decide nak buat acara memanah.
haha
what the heck kaitan memanah dgn meeting pibg kan?
well,tu lah my gb dia ni exquisite sket
will sambung blogging
nak turun ke dataran,tangkap gambar cikgu2 memanah.
bleh letak dlm blog.haha.
lawak la skolah ni.
tajuk tu macam best kan?
hari ni ada mesyuarat pibg and my dearest guru besar decide nak buat acara memanah.
haha
what the heck kaitan memanah dgn meeting pibg kan?
well,tu lah my gb dia ni exquisite sket
will sambung blogging
nak turun ke dataran,tangkap gambar cikgu2 memanah.
bleh letak dlm blog.haha.
lawak la skolah ni.
Aug 11, 2009
Here I am. A Survivor.
well this wud be the first time i'm blogging with my phone.wah,sungguh xsangka.i'm in kelantan,(no offense to kelantanese) and i'm blogging via my mobile.again.wow.
Currently i'm sitting not so comfortably in the staff room.baby,i'm working!dah bukan student lg dah.haha.rasa sungguh lawak.
My school so far ok.although dpt kat kampung and xde tesco,whatsoever,but i'm adjusting.i was sent to daerah jajahan jeli and i've been here for 2weeks.so far,ok.its just that bekalan air xbrapa best and no entertainment apa kat sini.
For those yg nak tahu,i'm teaching in sk batu melintang,jeli.luckily for me,this remote kampung ialah tempat paling dkat dgn negeri perak.just next to bt melintang ialah banjaran titiwangsa and after that,voila.tasik banding.kira dh masuk grik la tu.bt melintang to grik is about 115km.sejam driving.to ipoh,add another sejam stengah.haha.heaven.still blh balik jumpa baby tersayang.
Students sini ok.but biasalah,dok kampung.english mmg sgt weak.hmm i'm going to be really busy teaching and educating.the students here pulak busy teaching me to speak slang kelantan.i'm having a hard time sticking to my slang perak.adoi.
Will try to snap some pictures of the school.skolah ni menghadap banjaran titiwangsa.so every morning ada kabus gunung yg sgt tebal.rasa mcm dok kat cameron.
I miss u so much.tapi u teman i every day.i xrasa sorg2 sgt kat sini.i'm counting the days utk balik ipoh and be with u.tggu i balik ok baby.nak peluk u lama2.oppss...
Mental note:baby,please tegur i setiap kali i terkecek kelate ok.hehe.xsengaja la.
Currently i'm sitting not so comfortably in the staff room.baby,i'm working!dah bukan student lg dah.haha.rasa sungguh lawak.
My school so far ok.although dpt kat kampung and xde tesco,whatsoever,but i'm adjusting.i was sent to daerah jajahan jeli and i've been here for 2weeks.so far,ok.its just that bekalan air xbrapa best and no entertainment apa kat sini.
For those yg nak tahu,i'm teaching in sk batu melintang,jeli.luckily for me,this remote kampung ialah tempat paling dkat dgn negeri perak.just next to bt melintang ialah banjaran titiwangsa and after that,voila.tasik banding.kira dh masuk grik la tu.bt melintang to grik is about 115km.sejam driving.to ipoh,add another sejam stengah.haha.heaven.still blh balik jumpa baby tersayang.
Students sini ok.but biasalah,dok kampung.english mmg sgt weak.hmm i'm going to be really busy teaching and educating.the students here pulak busy teaching me to speak slang kelantan.i'm having a hard time sticking to my slang perak.adoi.
Will try to snap some pictures of the school.skolah ni menghadap banjaran titiwangsa.so every morning ada kabus gunung yg sgt tebal.rasa mcm dok kat cameron.
I miss u so much.tapi u teman i every day.i xrasa sorg2 sgt kat sini.i'm counting the days utk balik ipoh and be with u.tggu i balik ok baby.nak peluk u lama2.oppss...
Mental note:baby,please tegur i setiap kali i terkecek kelate ok.hehe.xsengaja la.
Jul 28, 2009
mental note kepada bubu
i'm going to miss u
macam xnak pegi pun ada
i'm scared
i takut i xboleh adjust my life there without u
i takut nak tinggalkan u
i don't know what's going to happen to us
but i just hope kita stay strong
and appreciate masa yg kita ada together
u xkan faham ketakutan i
u kan cool gila
i ni kan memang kaki gelabah
ntah la bubu
i just takut ada big changes nnt
i takut i xboleh cope dgn changes tu
i just nak u ada dgn i
support i mcm yg u selalu buat
i nak u ada dgn i
through susah and senang
we stay together
u've been standing beside me for the past six years
jom la berdiri dgn i lagi untuk more years to come
i'm happy with u,b
despite what ppl say
i xpeduli pun
i'm strong
and i'm stronger bila u ada
i just need u and nothing else
stay with me
i maybe jauh and i mesti nangis2 setiap hari
and i nak u teman i
jgn nakal2 baby
i'll try to see u as much as i can
just tggu i balik ok
jgn gaduh dgn i each time i nak balik
please understand baby
hidup jauh dgn u dah susah utk i
having to teach kat sana pun lg buat i susah
please know
each time i nangis i nak balik tu sebab i nak kumpul strength i balik
i kena ngadu kat u pjg2
i need to know u mmg ada dgn i
then baru i bleh continue life i kat sana blk
pendek kata
just tggu i balik
i tau u akan miss i jugak
xkira la u gangster kampung mana pun
u mesti akan ingat i punya
kan b?
hmm
i dah merepek ni
i xboleh tido
kena gerak naim bangun tido jap lagi
dia nak balik kl naik tren 4.30pagi
i nak dating ngan u lagi esok pagi
wow pengsan la i
just read this and try to understand
i ada byk benda nak pesan kat u
tapi u mesti dah boleh teka semua benda2 tu
since u sgt cerdik,i akan stop menulis skrg
p/s:baby,blog i ni mcm blog bimbo kan?mcm org cetek akal menulis kan?*sigh*
macam xnak pegi pun ada
i'm scared
i takut i xboleh adjust my life there without u
i takut nak tinggalkan u
i don't know what's going to happen to us
but i just hope kita stay strong
and appreciate masa yg kita ada together
u xkan faham ketakutan i
u kan cool gila
i ni kan memang kaki gelabah
ntah la bubu
i just takut ada big changes nnt
i takut i xboleh cope dgn changes tu
i just nak u ada dgn i
support i mcm yg u selalu buat
i nak u ada dgn i
through susah and senang
we stay together
u've been standing beside me for the past six years
jom la berdiri dgn i lagi untuk more years to come
i'm happy with u,b
despite what ppl say
i xpeduli pun
i'm strong
and i'm stronger bila u ada
i just need u and nothing else
stay with me
i maybe jauh and i mesti nangis2 setiap hari
and i nak u teman i
jgn nakal2 baby
i'll try to see u as much as i can
just tggu i balik ok
jgn gaduh dgn i each time i nak balik
please understand baby
hidup jauh dgn u dah susah utk i
having to teach kat sana pun lg buat i susah
please know
each time i nangis i nak balik tu sebab i nak kumpul strength i balik
i kena ngadu kat u pjg2
i need to know u mmg ada dgn i
then baru i bleh continue life i kat sana blk
pendek kata
just tggu i balik
i tau u akan miss i jugak
xkira la u gangster kampung mana pun
u mesti akan ingat i punya
kan b?
hmm
i dah merepek ni
i xboleh tido
kena gerak naim bangun tido jap lagi
dia nak balik kl naik tren 4.30pagi
i nak dating ngan u lagi esok pagi
wow pengsan la i
just read this and try to understand
i ada byk benda nak pesan kat u
tapi u mesti dah boleh teka semua benda2 tu
since u sgt cerdik,i akan stop menulis skrg
p/s:baby,blog i ni mcm blog bimbo kan?mcm org cetek akal menulis kan?*sigh*
Jul 16, 2009
the d-day!!
haha..
posting result was out
haha
can't help laughing
damn
first and foremost,
hi dear bubu
i miss u again
*wink*
well mostly thanks to nad
i'm posted with the latest news about whats going on
the latest news, gossips, bla bla bla
thanks a bunch to nad
"nad,sebab msg ko yg ko hantar setiap hari tu
telah membantu aku memahami kebangangan KPM.thanks babe"
so many rumours flying around
about jpn mana yang dah keluarkan list penempatan
hmm..well i guess i'll just sit by my phone
and wait for it to beep again.
nad will update me with the latest news.
nad macam bilik berita bergerak skrg
sumber yg lebih reliable dr alin.haha
maybe sebab nad je yg ada phone number aku kot
anyway,news about posting came quite shocking
but i predicted worst
turn out,its not so bad
at least me+farah are together
won't die alone there
*sigh*
bubu ckp tempat tu ok je
i'll survive kan?
coz i'm ur baby kan?
i'm strong
i can handle this
i'm excited.nervous,scared to hell and curious
i don't know what to expect
i don't know how the people there will accept me
i hope they won't mind me wearing jeans
i heard kat sana xbley pakai ketat2
hehe
lagi la i'm a tea-cher
kena jaga reputation
role model la katakan
role model my a**
but i think i know how to handle myself
i always thought by being humble and down to earth
will win u many-many hearts
i hope they like me
i hope i know how to attract the student's attention
i'm still wondering
to translate or not to translate?
i don't want to leave the class after every lesson
with the students not being able to understand things that i had taught
i want them to learn
at least 1 or 2 things each time i entered the class
i guess i had to meet the students first
then only i'll be able to tell
why am i talking about this?
am i excited?
hmm maybe
excited to get paid
its been a while living without $$
i can't stand it anymore
to my other friends out there (u know who u are)
best of luck
to dear farah
haha..kita shopping sakan la kat sana
baju kita la yg ter-cun skali
and lastly
to my bubu
i'm going to miss u so much
i know u'll always be beside me
thanks for believing in me
i'll do my best
wait for me
mental note:its going to get really interesting on the 1st day in jpn.haha.looking forward to it.
posting result was out
haha
can't help laughing
damn
first and foremost,
hi dear bubu
i miss u again
*wink*
well mostly thanks to nad
i'm posted with the latest news about whats going on
the latest news, gossips, bla bla bla
thanks a bunch to nad
"nad,sebab msg ko yg ko hantar setiap hari tu
telah membantu aku memahami kebangangan KPM.thanks babe"
so many rumours flying around
about jpn mana yang dah keluarkan list penempatan
hmm..well i guess i'll just sit by my phone
and wait for it to beep again.
nad will update me with the latest news.
nad macam bilik berita bergerak skrg
sumber yg lebih reliable dr alin.haha
maybe sebab nad je yg ada phone number aku kot
anyway,news about posting came quite shocking
but i predicted worst
turn out,its not so bad
at least me+farah are together
won't die alone there
*sigh*
bubu ckp tempat tu ok je
i'll survive kan?
coz i'm ur baby kan?
i'm strong
i can handle this
i'm excited.nervous,scared to hell and curious
i don't know what to expect
i don't know how the people there will accept me
i hope they won't mind me wearing jeans
i heard kat sana xbley pakai ketat2
hehe
lagi la i'm a tea-cher
kena jaga reputation
role model la katakan
role model my a**
but i think i know how to handle myself
i always thought by being humble and down to earth
will win u many-many hearts
i hope they like me
i hope i know how to attract the student's attention
i'm still wondering
to translate or not to translate?
i don't want to leave the class after every lesson
with the students not being able to understand things that i had taught
i want them to learn
at least 1 or 2 things each time i entered the class
i guess i had to meet the students first
then only i'll be able to tell
why am i talking about this?
am i excited?
hmm maybe
excited to get paid
its been a while living without $$
i can't stand it anymore
to my other friends out there (u know who u are)
best of luck
to dear farah
haha..kita shopping sakan la kat sana
baju kita la yg ter-cun skali
and lastly
to my bubu
i'm going to miss u so much
i know u'll always be beside me
thanks for believing in me
i'll do my best
wait for me
mental note:its going to get really interesting on the 1st day in jpn.haha.looking forward to it.
Jul 9, 2009
you big idiot
i really had to write this.
u broke my heart.
wasn't it hard enough for me not being able to see u more than once a week?
wasn't it hard enough for me to accept all yr excuses and not being able to complaint about it?
aren't u busy enough?
why are u doing this to me?
or am i being selfish?
or was it u?
damn it!
u're the biggest idiot i have ever met
u treat my heart like it was a piece of garbage
u didn't care
all the plans
i prepared myself to see u
i changed my clothes a few times tonight
i don't want to smell bad when i see u
i spent more time than i should in the bathroom tonight
thought i should look cleaner and smell better
spent an hour for a stupid scrubbing session
thought u might be happy when u touch my skin,i'm super soft and clean tonight
but u had to ruin it all
i hate making plans with u
u will ruin everything
because u're big fat idiot
i planned something special
been thinking to surprise u
well fuck it.
no more surprises
no more plans
u'll end up cancelling my plans and making me look stupid
thanks a lot
mental note:i don't care what u might be feeling right now.
u broke my heart.
wasn't it hard enough for me not being able to see u more than once a week?
wasn't it hard enough for me to accept all yr excuses and not being able to complaint about it?
aren't u busy enough?
why are u doing this to me?
or am i being selfish?
or was it u?
damn it!
u're the biggest idiot i have ever met
u treat my heart like it was a piece of garbage
u didn't care
all the plans
i prepared myself to see u
i changed my clothes a few times tonight
i don't want to smell bad when i see u
i spent more time than i should in the bathroom tonight
thought i should look cleaner and smell better
spent an hour for a stupid scrubbing session
thought u might be happy when u touch my skin,i'm super soft and clean tonight
but u had to ruin it all
i hate making plans with u
u will ruin everything
because u're big fat idiot
i planned something special
been thinking to surprise u
well fuck it.
no more surprises
no more plans
u'll end up cancelling my plans and making me look stupid
thanks a lot
mental note:i don't care what u might be feeling right now.
Jul 6, 2009
i am really wasting my time.i should be sleeping now.
alamak.nobody watched!had to do something about it.:)~
hehe.*sheepishly* drink while walking.
yes.i believe so.survival of the fittest.
yes.yes.yes.
haha.yes.thousands times!
tough question needs tough answer.er..SKIP!
both.hope xpayah go thru again.
update blog.keluar.makan.main dgn kucing.
yep.my bubu.
tatto yg xpermanent tu bleh kot.beli mamee mesti dpt punya.
nasik.ingat kot dpt mcd.no luck.
night person.mcm batman.
haha.honestly yes.bila dah sgt2 penat.
yep.no comment.
blur kejap kot.wakenabeb ke ni?
yes.i'm a social butterfly.kahkahkah.
always.dah gila kot.
i hope i am.
lepas dinner tadi.
no.everybody's asleep.
i want and i'm in it.loving every second of it~
tutup pc dan pujuk diri sendiri supaya tido.
i wish that someone was really dead.
turn back time.undo all mistakes.
naliness?ke natalianess?huduhnye
miss bubu,boring cause xdpt gayut,lapar tu feeling jugak kan?
i hope not.regrets tu macam means u make mistakes.i tried to think apa yg dibuat tu sebagai accomplishments.
no.malas nak pasang lagu.
aiyo.dpn pc la dey.
frogs.hehe.posting.my future.
michael jackson-u are not alone
yep.bubu.can't wait for tomorrow.
farahazura.
senarai auction kereta kat bank
had to ask someone else.i didn't notice anything big yet.
err toilet?
huahuahua.celebrity looked like me!
apart from what i know now?sadly x.bubu jom la blajar spanish..
comfort+match my mood=serabut
too many.one of them is maybe what i'm about to do tomorrow kot.
white.blue.
i like all of them.chad kroeger is so sexy.
kat yik foong tadi.kad kredit naim xleh pakai.float byk sgt.damn~
it will involve me+bubu+bmw cars+money+love+...
bubu.
let's waste time ppl!
pillows,bubu punya pink tshirt and my bag
last month.the first few days of KISSM.haha
u busuk :)
cina jual modem kat parade,naim,mama
freezing to death!try sleeping in cameron time musim hujan.ces.
ironing naim's shirt.berbuat baik mengharapkan mcdonald.
me+bubu in bali.
nope.hopefully soon.
BAGI LA SIGNAL WEI!!
chocolate.end of discussion.
hot chocolate.buat sendiri.tasty~
green kaftan.
nasik+sambal tumis udang dgn petai+ayam goreng
uwaaaaa~~~nooooooooo.......zero $$.nak beli baju bundle pun xlepas.
just now.kat yik foong.rushing ke kedai komputer.takut tutup.
bola sepak liga melayu.malam semalam.horrible.
bora-bora island.with bubu.
azfar's blog.a few days back.theirmorningglory.blogspot.
huh.camping PPL in teluk batik.worst nightmare.
i am tan.wtf?
haha.no.i'm not that clumsy.
all my overly creative imaginations that involves me and bubu.*wink*
rarely.cause i've stop ym-ing.
nope.xde feel.like to drink it directly from the can.baru cool.
teman aku pegi jumpa org pkul 7.30pm jap lagi ok.eh,jadi ke plan kita nak gi beli modem malam ni?
i'd like to think so.
jumpa bubu and surprise him.
tido la.dah pkul 1pg ni..
bakul yang penuh dgn kain yg belum dilipat.
silver.
kangaroo,koala and steve irwin.
sadly no.but will make a trip to genting soon!
really boring stone.opal.yuck.
drive thru.easier.
teyl batch 2003-2009.i hate them all.excluding a few.
no.i have cats.hannah and the three musketeers that i haven't decide what names to call them.
farah.
dapat bangun bila alarm clock bunyi pukul 4.30am jap lagi
as long as my bubu is with me,i'm happy.right now,i am truly over-excited.
depan pc.tepi bakul kain.
still jobless.*sigh*
michael jackson-thriller
cinema-transformers.dvd-angels&demons
yes.sabun and air-cond.
black 2inch open-toe i bought at nose.really comfy.
not particularly.i'm happy.
no.
haha.mestilah ramai.typical human.biasalah.
ntah.xamik peduli pun.
i tried.one portion of vege for each meal.a must.
watch tv,sleeping,kacau bubu.
no.waste of time.
yep.every time i answered phone calls.
4 or 5.maybe more.i dunnow.
solid twenty-four.yeesh.i'm getting old.
cermin kereta jatuh on my wrist.i was 5years old at that time.
Jul 4, 2009
the day i thought i really should write something
first and foremost,
hi bubu
phew!
its been a while since i wrote something
life has been tumbling up and down recently
finally,its finished.
my whole student life was finished.kaput.
am i glad?yep.sure thing.
but i do miss my tiny group of friends
especially those who knows me and won't judge me for what i do
its been one hell of a ride
but i'm sure i'm not up to do it again
i don't want to talk about friendship
because honestly i didn't get the chance to really taste it
its not really hard to find a good friend
its as easy as eating roti canai (thats currently in front of me right at this moment)
but finding a traitor is much easier
at one look,u'll definitely know
to all the lying bitches in teyl:i know who u are
message sent.delivered.done.
bubu,u're right
and i hate to say this
u're almost always right
they don't deserve me
they're too dumb
enough about friendship talk
but for my real friends out there
in case u're reading this
thanks for sticking up with me
even when i'm being impossible
i'm not going to talk about the hot gossip
that revolves around the late teyl group either
simply put,
i didn't do it
u guys can ask the bomoh to voodoo my mum or whatever
but the truth will come out soon
and u ppl will be too dumb to understand
plain simple truth
god, u guys are really idiot.
oh how i look forward for convocation this october
u bitches look out
i'm going to get even.
just last night i had found out
that my genius bf had stumble upon my blog
yeeshh
so much for trashing him secretly whatnot
but he told me that he didn't mind
i can write whatever things that i like
he told me this last night: baby, i ni kan windows explorer
but its a good thing that he finds out on his own
i do want him to find out about the blog and read it
that's the main purpose for writing this
damn
tv looks so tempting
had to stop writing
besides,i'm making a lot grammar errors now
better stop writing
before i tarnished my reputation as a future tea-cher
mental note: never write with an empty stomach and a tv nearby.that roti canai looks so good.i'm blank.all i can think of is that roti canai.shoot.
hi bubu
phew!
its been a while since i wrote something
life has been tumbling up and down recently
finally,its finished.
my whole student life was finished.kaput.
am i glad?yep.sure thing.
but i do miss my tiny group of friends
especially those who knows me and won't judge me for what i do
its been one hell of a ride
but i'm sure i'm not up to do it again
i don't want to talk about friendship
because honestly i didn't get the chance to really taste it
its not really hard to find a good friend
its as easy as eating roti canai (thats currently in front of me right at this moment)
but finding a traitor is much easier
at one look,u'll definitely know
to all the lying bitches in teyl:i know who u are
message sent.delivered.done.
bubu,u're right
and i hate to say this
u're almost always right
they don't deserve me
they're too dumb
enough about friendship talk
but for my real friends out there
in case u're reading this
thanks for sticking up with me
even when i'm being impossible
i'm not going to talk about the hot gossip
that revolves around the late teyl group either
simply put,
i didn't do it
u guys can ask the bomoh to voodoo my mum or whatever
but the truth will come out soon
and u ppl will be too dumb to understand
plain simple truth
god, u guys are really idiot.
oh how i look forward for convocation this october
u bitches look out
i'm going to get even.
just last night i had found out
that my genius bf had stumble upon my blog
yeeshh
so much for trashing him secretly whatnot
but he told me that he didn't mind
i can write whatever things that i like
he told me this last night: baby, i ni kan windows explorer
but its a good thing that he finds out on his own
i do want him to find out about the blog and read it
that's the main purpose for writing this
damn
tv looks so tempting
had to stop writing
besides,i'm making a lot grammar errors now
better stop writing
before i tarnished my reputation as a future tea-cher
mental note: never write with an empty stomach and a tv nearby.that roti canai looks so good.i'm blank.all i can think of is that roti canai.shoot.
to one special anonymous who has kindly post a comment on my blog
dear anonymous,
i miss u
and i want u to hurry home
life's kinda empty when u're not around
i miss u
and i want u to hurry home
life's kinda empty when u're not around
Jun 9, 2009
May 25, 2009
the reason behind these mumbo-jumbo
well, i'm pretty pissed with my 7-years-old-relationship boyfriend.
i had to let it out.
or i'll be looking like an old nenek soon enough.
i tried talking some sense to him.
tried to crack some lame jokes.
tried to hit him when i thought he's just plain d**b
none of that works.
this is my last resort.
jack nicholson says:
I'm going to need you to retard your anger.
so i'm retarding my anger by writing in the blog.
shoot.
it sounds like i'm really retarded.
the reason behind these over-flow hormone writings is i need to channel out my anger.
i'm angry at him.
usually i am angry.
after i heard his melodic voice, i'm his.
so before i give in to him easily,
i feel like i need to express myself about things that i thought he had overlooked.
i was half wishing by now that he will read this blog sooner or later.
i want him to read my essays and at least try to understand me.
maybe by writing in this blog, it will help me in finding the balance in myself.
sometimes i'm just angry about simple,petty things.
if i could write it here,maybe i don't have to scream in front of his face.
besides, he didn't want to bergayut anymore.
what better way to let him know than by writing a blog secretly and trashing him behind his back?
yeah.
i should do this.
wait.
i should have fun doing this.
mental note: i love u babe. ignore the trashing. i overreacted. women. biasalah.
i had to let it out.
or i'll be looking like an old nenek soon enough.
i tried talking some sense to him.
tried to crack some lame jokes.
tried to hit him when i thought he's just plain d**b
none of that works.
this is my last resort.
jack nicholson says:
I'm going to need you to retard your anger.
so i'm retarding my anger by writing in the blog.
shoot.
it sounds like i'm really retarded.
the reason behind these over-flow hormone writings is i need to channel out my anger.
i'm angry at him.
usually i am angry.
after i heard his melodic voice, i'm his.
so before i give in to him easily,
i feel like i need to express myself about things that i thought he had overlooked.
i was half wishing by now that he will read this blog sooner or later.
i want him to read my essays and at least try to understand me.
maybe by writing in this blog, it will help me in finding the balance in myself.
sometimes i'm just angry about simple,petty things.
if i could write it here,maybe i don't have to scream in front of his face.
besides, he didn't want to bergayut anymore.
what better way to let him know than by writing a blog secretly and trashing him behind his back?
yeah.
i should do this.
wait.
i should have fun doing this.
mental note: i love u babe. ignore the trashing. i overreacted. women. biasalah.
the day i nearly forgot that i had you
hi..again.
last night i slept quite late.
having a blast with my brother, jalan-jalan around ipoh at midnight.
though not so many things to see, ipoh literally shut down before 12am,
but it's just really nice to see the street lights.
and most importantly, less car.
we raced.
with myvi.and the damn car couldn't even keep up with us.
then came today.it was so blazing hot.
i had to drink more water than usual.
funny i didn't think of u the moment i open my eyes this mid-afternoon.
i was thinking about mama.
thinking about the fact that she will kill me because i didn't help her in the kitchen.
then after a short shower, i looked at the t-shirt u gave me.
it was lying on the floor.
maybe i throw it away when i was sleeping last night.
it was hot. if it made u feel better, i throw my bantal busuk too.
not just ur shirt.
i picked up the shirt, smelled it.
it smells like u.
then it hit me.
WHAM!!
hey,i have a boyfriend.
then i also realized that u are not here.
i guess it was not wrong for me to ignore u for today.
mama asked me to follow her to this new shop.
it belongs to one of her cousins.
the shop sells second hand clothes including shirts, jeans, bag, shoes, u name it.
i bought a few shirts, a few bags and i was looking for skirts.
but they just opened the shop today. they were still unpacking things.
i'll promise the auntie to come again next week.
maybe i'll buy more stuff there.
wait.
why did i look for skirts?
i have an awful leg.
its fat and ugly.
oh yeah..
its for u.
i still remember u told me about how u find me cute in skirts.
short skirts, to be exact.
and here i am, pissed with ur attitude but am still looking for skirts.
just to please u.
ain't life a bitch?
i don't understand myself most of the time.
i wish i could be much stronger and have the strength to ignore u for days.
went missing or unreachable.
i want to run away from u as far as possible so u can't hurt me.
but i find myself crawling back at u each time i tried to do that.
well i had to agree with xyhime.
this relationship is distructive.
sado-masochism.
u treat me like i'm a piece of garbage, though its unhealthy, but i let u to treat me like one.
pathetic.
since i had a lot of fun shopping with mama, i nearly forgot about u.
i find that quite amusing
u see, u never really left my mind.
sometimes, when i'm strong enough, i'll be able to forget about u for the whole day.
but that happens like once in a pink,green,yellowish moon.
u're always on my mind.
though it sounds corny and stupid, but its true.
do i really hope to forget u?
even just for a day?
i would stick to plain no.
maybe i'll let u slip off my mind for a few hours.
then i'll think of some things that u've said, or things that u do
i'll remember u back in seconds.
mama cooked some tasty meals today.
i felt like i want to keep some for u.
tomorrow's monday.
u'll be back home.
maybe i could save some of the food for u.
see?
do u see?
i always think about u.
damn!
i should rewrite the title.
"the-day-i-nearly-thought-i-had-forgot-u-but-i'm-actually-fooling-my-mind-how-can-i-forget-u-coz-u're-stuck-in-my-head-like-a-damn-glue"
yep.
that should do it.
last night i slept quite late.
having a blast with my brother, jalan-jalan around ipoh at midnight.
though not so many things to see, ipoh literally shut down before 12am,
but it's just really nice to see the street lights.
and most importantly, less car.
we raced.
with myvi.and the damn car couldn't even keep up with us.
then came today.it was so blazing hot.
i had to drink more water than usual.
funny i didn't think of u the moment i open my eyes this mid-afternoon.
i was thinking about mama.
thinking about the fact that she will kill me because i didn't help her in the kitchen.
then after a short shower, i looked at the t-shirt u gave me.
it was lying on the floor.
maybe i throw it away when i was sleeping last night.
it was hot. if it made u feel better, i throw my bantal busuk too.
not just ur shirt.
i picked up the shirt, smelled it.
it smells like u.
then it hit me.
WHAM!!
hey,i have a boyfriend.
then i also realized that u are not here.
i guess it was not wrong for me to ignore u for today.
mama asked me to follow her to this new shop.
it belongs to one of her cousins.
the shop sells second hand clothes including shirts, jeans, bag, shoes, u name it.
i bought a few shirts, a few bags and i was looking for skirts.
but they just opened the shop today. they were still unpacking things.
i'll promise the auntie to come again next week.
maybe i'll buy more stuff there.
wait.
why did i look for skirts?
i have an awful leg.
its fat and ugly.
oh yeah..
its for u.
i still remember u told me about how u find me cute in skirts.
short skirts, to be exact.
and here i am, pissed with ur attitude but am still looking for skirts.
just to please u.
ain't life a bitch?
i don't understand myself most of the time.
i wish i could be much stronger and have the strength to ignore u for days.
went missing or unreachable.
i want to run away from u as far as possible so u can't hurt me.
but i find myself crawling back at u each time i tried to do that.
well i had to agree with xyhime.
this relationship is distructive.
sado-masochism.
u treat me like i'm a piece of garbage, though its unhealthy, but i let u to treat me like one.
pathetic.
since i had a lot of fun shopping with mama, i nearly forgot about u.
i find that quite amusing
u see, u never really left my mind.
sometimes, when i'm strong enough, i'll be able to forget about u for the whole day.
but that happens like once in a pink,green,yellowish moon.
u're always on my mind.
though it sounds corny and stupid, but its true.
do i really hope to forget u?
even just for a day?
i would stick to plain no.
maybe i'll let u slip off my mind for a few hours.
then i'll think of some things that u've said, or things that u do
i'll remember u back in seconds.
mama cooked some tasty meals today.
i felt like i want to keep some for u.
tomorrow's monday.
u'll be back home.
maybe i could save some of the food for u.
see?
do u see?
i always think about u.
damn!
i should rewrite the title.
"the-day-i-nearly-thought-i-had-forgot-u-but-i'm-actually-fooling-my-mind-how-can-i-forget-u-coz-u're-stuck-in-my-head-like-a-damn-glue"
yep.
that should do it.
May 23, 2009
the day you told me long hours phone calls are for teenagers
well..hi.
since u told me just now that u had difficulty in talking long hours over the phone, so i decided not to torture u anymore.
from now on, u can call me and make the phone call as brief as possible and u can hang up anytime u want.
well its u who can't talk long now. not me.
i enjoyed listening to ur voice everyday. it's like a drug to me. i had to listen to ur voice.
i need to know that u're doing ok. and i want to tell u everything that happens on that day.
guess u got tired of the same inane and meaningless conversation that we had over these few years.
which i had enjoyed them to fullest bit.
i really had to remind myself that i'm still young and u're old.
i still have the strength to hold the phone and listen to u mumbling ur way over things.
guess i'm stronger. and u're not.
so since we aren't going to talk much on the phone now, i'll just email u whatever things that i wanted to tell u.
i know that u don't read ur email often.
which is none of my business.
i know that u don't have the mood to reply. i'll just write anyway.
it seems only logical to me that we need to stay in touch.
we didn't sms each other much.
we didn't see each other more than once in a week.
we didn't email each other often.
we didn't chat through YM.
and now we won't be talking on the phone.
i mean, we'll talk. but i won't say so much cause i don't want u to be tired holding the phone.
poor baby.
wouldn't dream of making that fragile looking hands of urs screaming in pain because of me.
well everything seems to be perfectly boring today.
i'm jobless and i'm bored with my vacation.
its like i don't anything exciting to look forward for tomorrow.
no money, so it means i can't waste my time at the nearest pasar raya
same routine everyday.
i purposely woke up late everyday so that i won't notice the time.
then today i had my shower and my skin itch again.
it makes me wonder,i had used the recommended soap but i still had these annoying itchiness.
after that, i noticed that my kittens were screaming and their eyes were begging for food.
just realized that their food was already finished!the bottle was empty.
so i had to rush to the shop and bought them Whiskas.
treat them with nice food since they have been dutifully loyal accompanying me everyday. pretending to be my only friend.
after that, obviously i waited for ur much anticipated call.
i knew u were going away again. i'm getting sad. but had to be tough. had to endure this.
then the moment arrived!u called!listen to ur musical voice for a while then u cracked the news.
"i dah x reti bergayut dengan u"
great.
well i'll spare u from all the details about how hurt it felt.u don't have to know.
then i called farah and we talked.
its nice to hear a familiar voice once in a while.
i feel like i actually have a friend.
we make plans about next week.
i'm thinking to go back to penang earlier.no use of staying here too long.
then i focus my energy in doing some house chores. mama will be back soon.
today i managed to sweet talk papa to buy me some durians.
been dreaming to eat those for weeks
so we went to pasir putih and bought three big-sized durians and three kilos of mangosteen.
after that, we stopped by at tesco to buy some vege and bread. planning to eat home made burgers tonight.
naim will be back today.i had to pick him up around 12am at the railway station.
watch tv,had dinner,eat durians.
thats about it.
i'll write again.
maybe tomorrow if i'm still feeling uptight like this.
mental note: thanks for actually calling before u leave for ur home town.thanks for the sms too.
till then.
since u told me just now that u had difficulty in talking long hours over the phone, so i decided not to torture u anymore.
from now on, u can call me and make the phone call as brief as possible and u can hang up anytime u want.
well its u who can't talk long now. not me.
i enjoyed listening to ur voice everyday. it's like a drug to me. i had to listen to ur voice.
i need to know that u're doing ok. and i want to tell u everything that happens on that day.
guess u got tired of the same inane and meaningless conversation that we had over these few years.
which i had enjoyed them to fullest bit.
i really had to remind myself that i'm still young and u're old.
i still have the strength to hold the phone and listen to u mumbling ur way over things.
guess i'm stronger. and u're not.
so since we aren't going to talk much on the phone now, i'll just email u whatever things that i wanted to tell u.
i know that u don't read ur email often.
which is none of my business.
i know that u don't have the mood to reply. i'll just write anyway.
it seems only logical to me that we need to stay in touch.
we didn't sms each other much.
we didn't see each other more than once in a week.
we didn't email each other often.
we didn't chat through YM.
and now we won't be talking on the phone.
i mean, we'll talk. but i won't say so much cause i don't want u to be tired holding the phone.
poor baby.
wouldn't dream of making that fragile looking hands of urs screaming in pain because of me.
well everything seems to be perfectly boring today.
i'm jobless and i'm bored with my vacation.
its like i don't anything exciting to look forward for tomorrow.
no money, so it means i can't waste my time at the nearest pasar raya
same routine everyday.
i purposely woke up late everyday so that i won't notice the time.
then today i had my shower and my skin itch again.
it makes me wonder,i had used the recommended soap but i still had these annoying itchiness.
after that, i noticed that my kittens were screaming and their eyes were begging for food.
just realized that their food was already finished!the bottle was empty.
so i had to rush to the shop and bought them Whiskas.
treat them with nice food since they have been dutifully loyal accompanying me everyday. pretending to be my only friend.
after that, obviously i waited for ur much anticipated call.
i knew u were going away again. i'm getting sad. but had to be tough. had to endure this.
then the moment arrived!u called!listen to ur musical voice for a while then u cracked the news.
"i dah x reti bergayut dengan u"
great.
well i'll spare u from all the details about how hurt it felt.u don't have to know.
then i called farah and we talked.
its nice to hear a familiar voice once in a while.
i feel like i actually have a friend.
we make plans about next week.
i'm thinking to go back to penang earlier.no use of staying here too long.
then i focus my energy in doing some house chores. mama will be back soon.
today i managed to sweet talk papa to buy me some durians.
been dreaming to eat those for weeks
so we went to pasir putih and bought three big-sized durians and three kilos of mangosteen.
after that, we stopped by at tesco to buy some vege and bread. planning to eat home made burgers tonight.
naim will be back today.i had to pick him up around 12am at the railway station.
watch tv,had dinner,eat durians.
thats about it.
i'll write again.
maybe tomorrow if i'm still feeling uptight like this.
mental note: thanks for actually calling before u leave for ur home town.thanks for the sms too.
till then.
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