the day you told me long hours phone calls are for teenagers

well..hi.

since u told me just now that u had difficulty in talking long hours over the phone, so i decided not to torture u anymore.
from now on, u can call me and make the phone call as brief as possible and u can hang up anytime u want.
well its u who can't talk long now. not me.
i enjoyed listening to ur voice everyday. it's like a drug to me. i had to listen to ur voice.
i need to know that u're doing ok. and i want to tell u everything that happens on that day.
guess u got tired of the same inane and meaningless conversation that we had over these few years.
which i had enjoyed them to fullest bit.
i really had to remind myself that i'm still young and u're old.
i still have the strength to hold the phone and listen to u mumbling ur way over things.
guess i'm stronger. and u're not.

so since we aren't going to talk much on the phone now, i'll just email u whatever things that i wanted to tell u.
i know that u don't read ur email often.
which is none of my business.
i know that u don't have the mood to reply. i'll just write anyway.
it seems only logical to me that we need to stay in touch.
we didn't sms each other much.
we didn't see each other more than once in a week.
we didn't email each other often.
we didn't chat through YM.
and now we won't be talking on the phone.
i mean, we'll talk. but i won't say so much cause i don't want u to be tired holding the phone.
poor baby.
wouldn't dream of making that fragile looking hands of urs screaming in pain because of me.

well everything seems to be perfectly boring today.
i'm jobless and i'm bored with my vacation.
its like i don't anything exciting to look forward for tomorrow.
no money, so it means i can't waste my time at the nearest pasar raya
same routine everyday.
i purposely woke up late everyday so that i won't notice the time.
then today i had my shower and my skin itch again.
it makes me wonder,i had used the recommended soap but i still had these annoying itchiness.
after that, i noticed that my kittens were screaming and their eyes were begging for food.
just realized that their food was already finished!the bottle was empty.
so i had to rush to the shop and bought them Whiskas.
treat them with nice food since they have been dutifully loyal accompanying me everyday. pretending to be my only friend.
after that, obviously i waited for ur much anticipated call.
i knew u were going away again. i'm getting sad. but had to be tough. had to endure this.
then the moment arrived!u called!listen to ur musical voice for a while then u cracked the news.
"i dah x reti bergayut dengan u"
great.
well i'll spare u from all the details about how hurt it felt.u don't have to know.
then i called farah and we talked.
its nice to hear a familiar voice once in a while.
i feel like i actually have a friend.
we make plans about next week.
i'm thinking to go back to penang earlier.no use of staying here too long.
then i focus my energy in doing some house chores. mama will be back soon.
today i managed to sweet talk papa to buy me some durians.
been dreaming to eat those for weeks
so we went to pasir putih and bought three big-sized durians and three kilos of mangosteen.
after that, we stopped by at tesco to buy some vege and bread. planning to eat home made burgers tonight.
naim will be back today.i had to pick him up around 12am at the railway station.
watch tv,had dinner,eat durians.

thats about it.
i'll write again.
maybe tomorrow if i'm still feeling uptight like this.


mental note: thanks for actually calling before u leave for ur home town.thanks for the sms too.

till then.