i'm being stupid. for the thousand time.

i wonder why i still feel sad
i thought i could sleep it off
and forget about it.
but its still root deep inside my heart
i couldn't stop my tears
it hurts so much
i tried to imagine how life will be like
i guess it won't be so bad
i'll just have to continue to pretend
how can i make him understand
how can i explain
when each time i tried to say something
i feel ashamed of myself
ashamed of my weakness
ashamed that i crave his company and his attention
while all he wants to do is work.

i am a weakling.



mental note: if u are reading this, ignore all of these. my entry semuanya sampah. its like u're reading budak umur 3 tahun punya mind. i'm shallow. don't even bother to say anything.i'll hate myself even more.