A walk to remember

sebelum blog ni menjadi panjang,
first and foremost,
hi baby.

i've been meaning to write about us.
but i just couldn't find the right time.
been really busy (but of course, u know that!)
sibuk dgn acara memanah la,
kelas tambahan malam la,
entertain 'org2 tertentu' la (hehe)
dan yang latest sekali,
bz menggatal. (damn)

baby,i tulis entry ini ialah untuk u.
and i nak explain.

baby,i'm sorry.
i xtahu kenapa i boleh distracted and encourage attitude i tu.
he's just another person yang i jumpa dalam life i.
he means NOTHING.
i malu untuk mengaku yang i pun sama melayan,
but that's the truth.
i xmahu guna alasan u bz atau i boring untuk menutup kesilapan yg i dah buat.
how could i even consider balas sms2 yang dia hantar?
i ada u!
bila difikirkan semula,what i did was really really STUPID.
i sanggup take risk yang boleh menghancurkan apa yang kita built selama ni.
serious b.
i malu dengan perangai macam ni.
i sepatutnya stay cool dan ignore semua temptation ni.
i've been with u for so long
and u sgt2 faham i.
u've been with me through thick and thin,
and yet here i am,
ruining everything.

tapi u sgt cool dan sabar dgn i.
b,dekat mana lagi i nak cari org mcm u?
i've learned so much from u
u taught me (almost) everything that u knew.
mcm u cakap tadi,
"i sedang membina empayar untuk u"
baby,i thank to god that i've found u.
tanpa u,
i xada apa.
i'm just ordinary me.
i mungkin cerdik,tapi u yang guide i untuk gunakan knowledge yang i ada.

u've been one of my greatest supporter.
u ada dgn i dan bantu i untuk go through segala jenis masalah.
selagi u ada,i feel like i could be anything.
u bagi i rasa macam i ni sgt2 bagus,sgt2 pandai,
i nak impress u every single day (although i tahu u bukan kesah pun, u tetap sayang i)
i nak u rasa proud dengan i.
i nak rasa special di mata u.
u make me feel like i could own the world.
u make me feel so strong.
i terhutang budi dengan u.
sampai bila2.

now kita bukan sekadar a couple,
we're business partners.
i find that working with u ada ups and downs.
u sgt fucking genius (i had to say that!)
but very demanding.
and sometimes perfectionist (haha)
but genius nak mati.
and i learned so much from u,b.
hmm u dah best macam ni sekali pun i still boleh berfoya-foya di belakang u.
damn.
i rasa mcm i sgt keji.
u sgt best.
i ni mcm pengkhianat.
i'm sorry baby.
of course u pun ada time u buat perangai yg agak pelik,
but i can deal with it.
this time,
i dah melampau.
i lupa u b!
can u imagine?
u sentiasa ada dlm mind i.
i xtahu mcm mana i boleh 'lupa' u.
gila lah i ni.

but no worries baby,
i dah sedar yg mana yg i boleh buat,
dan yg mana yg i xboleh buat.
i xnak lose u.
what i did was really stupid.
i wish not to repeat the same mistake.
i treasure what we have.
i hope u feel the same.

by the way,
i love u.
always.

mental note:baby,i memang suka tulis karangan panjang2.hehe.

**ini ialah something yang perlu distapler di minda saya:

The Ungrateful, A True Betrayal..!!!


nite bubu
-muah-