honeymoon:reconnect.pure bliss

sepeti biasa,
hi baby.
i really miss u.

as i was writing this,
i'm currently sitting in front of my pc,
glancing once in a while dekat tv
(cerita apa ntah,tapi biasala dah lewat mlm gini,astro bukan best pun)
and i'm getting hungry.hehe
u mesti akan cakap,
"lapar je u ni..kita gi makan nak?"

i still belum dapat tido lagi
dah pkul 5 pagi,tapi i masih berjaga
part of the reason,of course sebab u xada.
its quite difficult trying to go to sleep without having u next to me
selalunya u akan ada sebelah i
tonight i agak blur dan agak sunyi
xada sapa nak ajak gusti,
terpaksa tgk siaran ulangan bola sorang2,
makan aiskrim magnum mini xshare dgn u,
dan most importantly,xdapat sembang2 dgn u.
before u leave u told me that i won't be alone
that u will be with me
i peluk bantal u,
put on your shirt,
guna towel u (hehe sorry!)
dan gelak kuat2 bila tgk tv,buat mcm i tgh gelak dgn u.
xbest mcm ni b
i nak u ada.

i told u before yg i know that good things doesn't last forever.
i knew that u xboleh give me so much attention all the time
i knew that this honeymoon had to stop.
but that is what i'm afraid of
i takut bila things goes back to normal
i dah xdapat attention mcm ni
hmmmmm.....
i ni mengada2
i patut thankful dengan apa yg i ada sekarang
its ok baby
we can go back to being normal
i can handle it
because we're together

b,
things that we had to go thorugh lately
makes me appreciate u even more.
i'm glad i confessed.
i'm glad that we're able to go through the whole process
walaupun ada yg best,ada yg xbest
but i'm glad i'm being honest to u
and i'm glad that both of us fight to be together.
u don't have to worry.
it will never happen again.
i've learned my lesson.
i know how terrible i feel not having u around
i menangis non stop for two days
i xboleh tido
i couldn't stop thinking what will happen to us,to my life
i don't want to feel that ever again.

thank you for the flowers.
i don't know what to say
its beautiful.
and i know u wouldn't buy me the flowers if u don't love me enough
for a man like u,
what u did shows how much i mean to u.

baby,things that i wrote here doesn't even match what i feel right now.
i love u so much.
and these past few weeks,
u make me fall in love with u again.and again.and again.and again.
i'm afraid to be separated from u
i takut i rindukan u
i nak ada sebelah u all the time
and u ada dengan i sepanjang masa.
i hope i boleh survive bila honeymoon ni habis.
i buat mcm u cakap,
i simpan dalam hati.
and i tahu siapa i.

baby,i miss u so much.
cepat2 habiskan kerja u
dan cepat2 balik ok.
i tunggu u dkat rumah.mcm biasa.
and i get to hold u like always.
tomorrow night,kita makan aiskrim magnum mini tu sama2 ok
and kita tak paah tido ok.
kita sembang2 je smpai pagi.
(oohh shit,i kena pegi sekolah)
xpe,i still nak sembang2 dgn u and look at u all night.

baby,i'm thankful to have u.
i'm thankful for us to still be together.
i'm thankful that u paid me so much attention and said u love me again and again.
we'll be creating more memories
because we'll be together forever.
kan baby?
bunyinya sgt dramatik
tapi betul kan b?
kita stay sama2 sampai bila2 kan?
i baby u sampai bila2 kan?
i tahu i baby u
and i tahu kita akan survive apa pun masalah sama2
i tahu yg bila i umur 70,i'm still your baby.
your woman.
yours.

mental note: i secretly hope u balik malam ni.hehe.i really really miss u.u have no idea how much.oh by the way,u dah kena gigit dgn lintah ke belum?




i love u ikhtiari iqbal.
hurry home.