the reason behind these mumbo-jumbo

well, i'm pretty pissed with my 7-years-old-relationship boyfriend.
i had to let it out.
or i'll be looking like an old nenek soon enough.
i tried talking some sense to him.
tried to crack some lame jokes.
tried to hit him when i thought he's just plain d**b
none of that works.
this is my last resort.

jack nicholson says:
I'm going to need you to retard your anger.

so i'm retarding my anger by writing in the blog.
shoot.
it sounds like i'm really retarded.

the reason behind these over-flow hormone writings is i need to channel out my anger.
i'm angry at him.
usually i am angry.
after i heard his melodic voice, i'm his.
so before i give in to him easily,
i feel like i need to express myself about things that i thought he had overlooked.
i was half wishing by now that he will read this blog sooner or later.
i want him to read my essays and at least try to understand me.
maybe by writing in this blog, it will help me in finding the balance in myself.
sometimes i'm just angry about simple,petty things.
if i could write it here,maybe i don't have to scream in front of his face.
besides, he didn't want to bergayut anymore.
what better way to let him know than by writing a blog secretly and trashing him behind his back?
yeah.
i should do this.



wait.
i should have fun doing this.

mental note: i love u babe. ignore the trashing. i overreacted. women. biasalah.